Fast

The twist and turns of life come fast. You need to be a gymnast to not get hit by a stray ball. If you are like me you get hit a lot. I am slowly learning how to move out of the way but I still get hit from time to time. Maybe one day I will get the hang of this life thing.

Love of a Mother

Ok so in the spirit of being honest............
I am missing my mother a lot right now. I talk to her as if she were sitting next to me but it is not the same. We use to talk for hours. I remember the last time she was in the hospital. I went and stayed with her one night. We must have stayed up half the night and it gave me hope that maybe she would pull through like she always had. I wish I had know at the time that it would be our last long conversation. I should have seen the warning signs when she was talking about my sister and how I needed to help her when she was gone. I always thought I knew how much she loved us but I never fully understood till she made the comment that the only reason she kept fighting for her life was us girls. My mom fought harder than I have ever seen anyone fight. She gave me courage even when I thought that there was no way I could go on with out her here in my everyday life. She never gave up on me and I am so grateful. I wonder from time to time what she would think of me now. When I go to her grave it reminds me that life is short and we never know how much time we are given. I want my life to mean something to someone like my mother's meant to so many people that she touched in life and death.

Just Me

I am going to take the opportunity of my first blog to talk about who I am. I am someone who believes in the truth so I plan on being as honest as I can be at all times. I have struggled through the years with many ups and downs from losing my mom to dealing with my stepdad and the crazy life that follows him where ever he goes. I am a Christian and love the lord. I am not someone who judges. I fully understand that we are all diffrent and will handle situtions in different ways. I listen to my friends when ever they need someone to talk to. I have a close group of friends that I have know for 13 or more years and I call them family. I can be very protective over my friends but heaven help you if you mess with my two sisters. I do have a hard time keeping my thoughts to myself sometimes. When I get excited I tend to get very talkative and loud. I think that I am a pretty easy person to get along with. I am very forgiving just ask anyone who has done me wrong in the past you will find that I am friends with them even today but I do have a breaking point. I am not sure where I am going in this crazy life but it should be fun trying to figure it out along the way.